I wanted to write an informational blog regarding Mullerian Anomalies. But let's be honest, I'm not a nurse, I'm not a doctor, and I definitely did not pass a science class with A's or B's. So, maybe I can explain what we are facing in my terminology. Please bear with me.
I have a bicornuate uterus, which is also known as a heart-shaped uterus. This means that the shape of my uterus can contribute to complications during pregnancy and labor/delivery. It can also contribute to cervix problems. It seems that my cervix issues are opposite of what most women experience, where their cervix is weak. Mine is pretty tough, so hopefully, I have that on my side. This is just a comparison between a normal uterus and a bicornuate uterus.
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For years, I was treated for endometriosis. After my D&C and speaking to my doctor, it is apparent that I never had endometriosis.
Another worrisome factor in pregnancy is that I have intestinal malrotation. This is a birth defect where my intestines did not make the correct turns that they were supposed to, and therefore, formed backwards. My intestines could potentially get in the way of a growing fetus; however that is very rare. The biggest issue is if volvulus occurs during pregnancy. In order to treat volvulus, a lot of times it involves a surgical procedure called a Ladd's Procedure. This is not a good procedure to have during pregnancy, and *could* potentially abort the pregnancy. However, there are women out there that were able to have the Ladd's Procedure during pregnancy and everything turned out ok. There are women who have had intestinal malrotation and had full-term, non-complicated pregnancies.
What is so scary for me is wrapping my mind around all of it. I'm not getting any younger - which also worries me. I don't want to cause more problems than necessary. I believe that the worst part about all of this is that even if I do find answers.... NOTHING is guaranteed. I don't know if I'm ready to face that thought just yet. My miscarriage is still so fresh in my mind. I'm not ready to face this battle. I'm not ready to go through the worry, the fear, and the uncertainty of what's to come during pregnancy or trying to conceive. Not to mention, the financial stress of a miscarriage. I can't go through the financial pressures to have multiple miscarriages. This is why Travis and I have agreed that we are *not* ready to go back to trying for a baby again. We are going to give ourselves until after the baby's due date (August 13) - because I know that day is going to be one of the most painful days waiting for me.
Just get through step one of this process. Find answers. All I have to do is listen to the answers tomorrow, and then we'll figure out step two.